i dont know if i'm getting old, or if i'm really old. i use to read blogs about outings with friends, where they travel, stuffs they bought and all. but i'm no longer into those blogging type anymore.

in fact, i'm rather privacy these days where i keep everything to myself. which i always think it's no use to expose everything personal as i'm not catching any limelight.

there're many thoughts in me, i just simply keep it personal.

i dont know... i just dont know...

. 010109 . thursday . 22:45 .

again, the feeling of 1122, which i can hardly express my feelings and put it in words, apparently i felt it again! and i believe not only me, but us.

the moment..
we waited, we were anxious but anticipates,
you appeared, i was stunned and too late to react,
you were worried for us, we were touched,
you saw us, you were suprised,
xiao boy was embraced, we were glad,
we captured a picture together, we were at first hyper, but angry later
you started singing, we enjoyed, you enjoyed
you were about to leave, we couldn't let go but understood,
you told us to earn more cash, i totally agree!
you left, we embraced each other
we embraced each other, i knew it's gonna be a good beginning for a brand new year,
we were on the way to Stevens', we recalled back the moment of 329,
we were at Stevens', we thought of another two person,
we were about to leave Stevens', xiaoboy fell asleep,
we left Stevens', we misses each other,
i reached home, i missed my hubby,
czeer and i were prepared to sleep, we chatted whole night long and were catching up with each other after months and we then realize...

why were we treated in such a way where others were craving for it so much? simply because we understand him, and he understands us despite we never sit together and talked about it. it's a connection within us that clicks without the need to explain.

and of course, when we tend not to be selfish, but to share it with others, we find a value in ourselves that we will not compare with others, not to envy others, but to share the happiness with each other who understands, and never demand for anything extra

we discussed about this when we were at Stevens' and luan came up with a conclusion that if we do not demand things exiting the limit, we will not be dissapointed, in return, we'll be surprised. which is very true after what we experienced in 1122 and last night. 

 do not have the right to stop anyone to misjudge us or to assume us as the "idol's pet", but i have the right to tell that we did not pay less effort nor did anything extra to support u and my idol.

and come to think of it, it's a brand new year, and it's the 7th year and it will still go on.. hey, we're still young! "teenagers" ma~ so, earn more cash!

Dearest ga hou yuet yun members, it's in the middle of the nite where i'm leaving to kuala selangor soon in few hours time with my hubby and family, i know u'll miss me much, so i wrote a short message for you here.

i dont remember when is the first time i met you guys. some may not for long, but the friendship is for real. some may be long and last till today, and i believe it will last forever.

"friendship" could hardly describe the relationship between us. i would say a loving "family" suits our relationship better.

a family because we're not a group of ladies at a general age, but a sum of 3 to 80 years old. where we have xiao boy and homa. having xiao boy in the family just simply cheers us up all the time. no matter if he nags, or gets angry, we'll understand because we love him. and the times when he is just being innocent to speak like a child, never fails to put a smile on our faces.

when we have homa with us, we dont have to worry much because you'll be the adviser and the one who takes care of us. which means we can be pampered at times!

when we have the sisters around, we'll take care of each other and think on behalf of each other, loving each other at times.

every outing we went out together, it's like a family gathering. just literally leaving stress and pressure behind, enjoying every moment together.

it doesnt take long to shape this loving family, we just clicked at the right time, right moment. all of us are pouring love and care over each other day by day, and i believe this will go on for always.. and i'm beginning to miss you now.

will see you guys not long, take care, and love you =)

love,
ahbi
(loh lui)

. 241109 . monday .

to you who knew the truth,
thank you for letting us know we're not alone
that you still see us
glad that you're supporting us
touched when you embraced us

to you who called,
glad to know that you noticed
touched to know that you care
thank you

to you who understands this,
we know we'll always be together
loving you always

to you the mastermind,
things comes by and goes around